Monday, September 29, 2008

Waiting

Some text messages sent to her. Still no reply. Waiting. Keep waiting. Time is ticking and passing by. How many times I sent her text messages. Guess, it's no use. We're not like we used to be. Everything had changed. Been 7 months and counting. However, since the beginning, I'm juz nobody. It remains the same. As I'm leaving...


Wishing You the best, wishing You happiness as always.


Kansha shitemasu. Otsukaresama desu.

Sunday, September 28, 2008

Finally

Finally, good thing came up after a bad thing (rrr...actually the bad thing is still on going sih).

The bad thing is, I got fever and my body was so hot ~till i write this, but its getting colder. Guessed it was caused by infection in my throat. Yesterday, when I was eating prawn, it got stucked n hurt my throat. The result was, my throat was bleeding. I knew that when I was taking wudlu n spit the water, there's blood in it. Geez... T-T though the bleeding was stopped, but my throat still hurt till now. And today, when I woke up, I felt my body so hot, and worst thing, I had to go to office in sunday. So I went to office an hour late. Did some tasks and also copied my stuffs for my resignation preparation ~dunno when it is exacty. At 3 o'clock, Bunda
made a phone. She told me that speedy guys is going to my house.

Yosh!!! After been waiting for about 5 days since I applied for speedy, they sent people to set it up in my house. Yeah, they set it for about one hour, took time longer due to the telephone line n LAN installation in my house. N yatta... its connected!! Tried to surf the web and download Naruto, and speed is not bad, 55-59 kB/s. But because my wrecked mouse, when i incidentally click once on the download list, my mouse made it twice, and the download progress was cancelled. Arrgghhh~

I think, I need some times to rest. Hayaku genki ni naru!! Amin...

Saturday, September 27, 2008

辞職届



Thursday, September 25, 2008

Tired

Seconds ticking in the office... I'm getting more tired. Ain't a robot that can overdo work, even a robot can't. I'm a humanbeing, daaaa??!~

I saw quotes below from Hafiz's blog for the first time:
Don’t ask a developer to work more overtime than he or she wants to work. Developers are like cats. If you push them in one direction, you can’t predict which way they’ll go except that they won’t go in the direction they’re pushed. If you need to get more done, come up with a different solution. (Source)



Geez... Lama2 kena KRAAMM OTAAKK INI =_=!!!

This is definitely not the way I like, however, since the first time, this is kinda work I try to avoid. Juz because I got recommended and I couldnt reject it with my reasons, I got stucked here till today.




Wednesday, September 24, 2008

My fave blog

One of my fave blog is written by my friend, Hafiz Rahman. We were at the same class in college. He puts everything in his written and keep them simple but meaningful, sarcastic but not hurting, they just shoot to the point rite away. Sometimes they're making me laugh, but also think.

Objective point of view is a good criticism.


The new blog is The Fardreamer~In loving memory of all the dreams. In which the older one is Taman Berteduh.

Read it, you'll understand, you'll realize, you'll think, and you'll act (if you assume you're a good person, though)

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

This week back songs... Kurumi, GIFT, Love Hajimemashita



Wada Kouji, is a singer that i like since many2 years ago, i knew him because he used to sing soundtrack for Digimon (8 years ago i think, first time Digimon on air in Indosiar). Since then on, i like his songs. These 2 last week, my back songs are Wada Kouji's from album Ever and also from Digimon osts, they are Bravery, Sketch, Hanabi JACK, Kami Hikouki, Kimi to Kisetsu to Hidamari to, Hirai ~Unplugged, Butterfly (Piano version), Seven (Acoustic), Kimi no Keshiki, Pierce, Daybreak, Honoo no Overdrive, Egao, Shoujo no Mama de, Say Again, Kimi Iro no Mirai, Modern Love, Bokura no Digital World, there are some more. I like them soooo muchh...

But this week, my back songs are Mr. Children. The most I like is Kurumi especially Kurumi live ver sang in Dome Tour I Love U 2005. This song is sooo~ touching, especially the PV i've seen in Youtube, gosh... i read the comments, and there's even a post says that she shedded tears after watched the PV.

Others from Mr Children in my playlist are Shirushi, Hana ~Memento Mori~, Love Hajimemashite, GIFT, Dakishimetai, Owarinakitabi, Tagatame, MIMOSA.

I do like them all...

What'r my next back songs? we'll see... ^^

Sunday, September 21, 2008

Today’s activities…

Today, woke up as usual, mm… 6.45, and tv was still on since yesterday, hehehe… I know it’s not wise to leave the tv on while I’m sleeping. Opened my eyes, and stared at tv. Eh… there’s Inuyasha, been long time I didn’t see it. Suddenly I remembered that Yuu loves it, took my hp and sent her an sms, informed her that inuyasha is on tv, yeah… though there’s no reply, at least I’ve told her, hope she got my sms.

Watched a while, and a thought came up, gotta try to install N-Gage in my N73, of course, official N-Gage is unable to be installed in my phone, but in the forums patched one is works, have to try it by myself. So, I turned on the PC, and plugged my external hdd and yeah I found the installer. Read the instructions, says it needs a hacked phone with full capability, and copy the installserver.exe ~to enable installing without certificate for most app~. Luckily, I’ve done some steps before; I did already hacked my phone long long time ago. Tried to install but no luck, it said certificate error, lazy to sign it with my certificate, I juz copied the installserver.exe to c:\sys\bin then restart it, and tried to install it once again. Result is, YATTA!!! \(^o^)/ It worked, after few confirmations it started to install the N-Gage Launcher. Tested the game by installing Bounce, after waiting 20 minutes of installation, tried to launch, but no hope, my phone juz gave me blank white screen. Hmm… started thinking, I didn’t make any mistakes. Maybe restarting is able to solve it, so I restarted my phone. And launched it again, and yes! Problem solved! I was able to play Bounce, went to the next game to be installed, FIFA 2008. It also worked fine. Hahaha… I’m so glad I had this device.

Sun out there was getting hotter,aaa~ its almost mid day. Suddenly, I started thinking of Yuu, dunno why, it juz came up to my mind. I was remembering what I said to her, after been long time i didn’t see her, she had a new laptop n there’s vista in it. I said, “don’t you think its kinda useless to have vista when the compatibility is not good for some apps, for coding?”, but she answered its already installed when she bought it. “Aaa~ I see”. Since then, I realized I also had vista in my PC ~actually I had 3 OS installed in my PC, windoz XP SP2, SP1, and vista~. Primary is the first, and second is for recovery purpose, and the vista juz for “having”. Coz, since I installed, my PC became unstable, suddenly turned off and then couldn’t be turned on. Lately, I knew the reason, it was because the cable extender was already out of age , probably 8 years already. And its too late to know it, I’d abandoned my PC for almost a year hahahaha!!! =_=!!! *sigh deeply* I replaced the extender some days ago, and now my PC runs well, that’s why now I’m back to my PC again and starting to enjoy and do some experiences with my PC.

Hikaru Yuuki no PC

Finally, I started to manage my vista, installed some programs, n installed some drivers for Bluetooth, graphic card, etc. but the most urgent was the graphic card. My new monitor was only capable to display max 1280x1024 instead of 1440x900 (now I had widescreen LCD). I believed, its must be the driver because in XP I it was able to set to 1440x900, and my guess is yes, it was using WDM driver from vista driver. Searched through my hdd and the only driver I found was only for XP, vista didn’t recognized it. Sigh… ~_~ But, suddenly I remembered, there’s one in CHIP DVD. Searching in the dvd boxes, and found latest one i got is 7/2008, and there’s a driver for vista, yeah hope it works. Try to install it, but it said its not compatible, its only run for Vista (32 bit). Wait a minute!!! Mine is vista rite?? So how come?? Gosh… Checked many times, its truly vista, I’m not blind, I did installed vista. Trying to figure out then whats wrong with the installation… An idea came up, I’ll try to extract the driver and install it manually. But, the program to extract?? Daaa~ I forgot, it’s been a long time, I didn’t remember the name ~I used to remember it since I was in junior hischool and touched windoz 95~. Finally, after almost a half hour searching, I figured out the app. At first, I thought the name is extract.exe, or extrac32.exe. But I was wrong, the right one is expand.exe, I forgot, its not extracting (from a cab/archive file), but expanding from a single file (the extension of compressed usually ended with “_”). Then, since its expanding from one file to another, it will be tired to type “expand file1.ex_ file1.exe”, instead, I created a batch file consisted all files needed to expand. After finished, tried to update my graphic driver, after some blank screen, finally the driver is UPDATED! YOKATTA NA!! Eventually, the resolution was able to be set to 1440x900.


Hikaru Yuuki new installed monitor in vista

Aaaaa~ I’m tired today… I guess I’ll continue next time (probably tonight, I’m so workaholic now as I used to be hahahaha). I must freeze my left leg, compress it with cold freezing ice, I guess I got my muscles strained and pain me to ass. It’s been 2 days I got pain. I have to start exercise and work out next time, especially because the way I’m riding my bike that always going speedy and almost over 100 kph, and lean left-right ~stupidly like in motogp hahaha~… Hope it will be healed soon. Amin ya rabbal alamin…

Friday, September 19, 2008

Stupidity... =_=

I’m not good in english, even more in japanese, n i’m gonna learn deutsch??
I think I’ll screw up my life. Bleh~
Am I a language geek?nerd? Nope, absolutely I’m not! I’m not a polyglot either.
Somehow, I feel like “aa~ this language is interesting, gotta learn a lil bit of”, buy a bun of books, start autodidactic learning, at first, it’s very interesting, but as time goes by, slowly but sure that books will never been touched anymore. Then start thinking, oh my Gosh… I spent money for something I didn’t use well. Probably, I’ll start reading it again, but after that… yeah… ya know… I’m too lazy to read a book that has no images inside it.
Nanka… what makes me embarrased is, I got a bad mark for my Javanese language since I was in elementary. I’m not good in Javanese, I should that I must good in it, why? Coz both my parents are javanese, my brother is also good, mostly my families are good. But me? Some says that I’m an anomaly wew~. Instead learning Javanese that I must able to, in fact, I learn Japanese.
But, start thinking again, I think I’ll get rid of any thoughts about deutsch,n hopefully I’ll concentrate in Japanese and also my poor English. Aa~ its still a long long journey…
Yosh… Itsumo itsumademo… ganbatte iru ne…
Ore wa tensai jyanai, datte, otoko no jinsei ni, ganbatte iru wa beshi koto desu!

Thursday, September 18, 2008

Yotsuba&!




Yotsubato! Yotsuba&! よつばと!
Recently, I'm reading this manga (vol 1,2,5,6~missing vol 3,4, couldnt find any in gramed or toga T-T). Its soooo funnny and makes me laugh so much!... ~till I got stomach ache =_=~. So, I'm not gonna be a spoiler, juz read it and you'll laugh..
I do really like manga sucha Kocchi Muite Miiko! n Yotsubato! Children are so funny, arent they? ^^








The story begins when a girl and her daddy r moving to a new town. Here, neighborhood, environment, almost all the things are unknown to her. Her actions, behaviors, innocence, also the way she speaks is really ridiculous.

Another my back's photo...


Yeah... another unwanted photo was taken. Only my back can bee seen rite. We were crossing the bridge and the scenery was so great! here, we could see the lake, people sailing n surfing (it looked like a beach, but i heard that its human made, dunno the fact >.<)

Ore to Kisetsu to Hidamari to ~kyonen



I do really like this photo, the scenery, the sun, and my back ~reminds me to Wada Kouji's song Kimi to Kisetsu to Hidamari to (You, the Seasons, and the Sun).

It was taken by my boss when we were at King's Park, Oz.. At that time, I did really grateful, after one week full of works and pressures, finally we could breathe a fresh air. Actually the one that made me depression is my own boss, not the environmental work. Till now, I dont really like the way he lead us. Giving us tasks without confirmation n discussion among the programmers, too bossy, peliiiitt, too many lies, nanka... what he had said sometime is totally different from what he had done ... Aaa~ he drives me nut... SUTOPPU SUTOPPU!!

Juz wanna runaway n start new life...

Hayaku nigerooo!!!... =_=!

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Juz realized I messed up my life...

I juz realized today, I'm not getting anywhere, sticking here like a stupid, like in a jail so called OFFICE!!!

Knowing my friends and people out there are expanding, growing, bigger and bigger but me?? even getting smaller. I'm not doing anything except, silly obeying what my boss says.

Gotta get out of here as soon as possible... Start thinking of my master degree, start making researches, writing journals. I guess I'll quit my job this month or at least by next month, after I got 13rd salary (whether its 1st payment or 2nd payment, seems dun care now, whether I could buy a sport motorbike, rather dun care now... I already have what i need, my brain, my soul, computer, friends, phone, home, bike, and also the first and the most important, of course Allah swt). I have to start reading, writing, back again to make my brain spinning like a CD in its player.

Hopefully, starting next month, I'll take a Japanese language course and maybe also Deutcsh... (wait a minute, how many languages I'll learn =_= is it worthy??

I'm frustating now... i feels like I'm running out of time, first I have to cure my self, gotta get myself healed, by this year, and then i'll try to apply for scholarship and able to go abroad....

Arrrhhh~~~

GANBATTE NEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ya Allah... tasukete kure...

Forgot that i had this blog ^o^

Recently, i juz realized that i had this blog. I never update this blog since i had my own blog at http://www.hikaruyuuki.com/blog, the domain is also mine. I think i will juz abandon this blog instead of delete it. Considering, I have some blogs to update, it drives me crazy, my blog, also private blog, and social community like Friendster, Facebook (juz search Hikaru Yuuki), also Forums like Nokia Discussion (been long time no see... aa~)

Saa... minna, if u have spare time to spend, visit me at my blog ya as i stated above...

Jya ne~

Yoroshiku onegaishimasu... ~_~